The HORROR of sending off a manuscript

For those who think this writing thing gets easier...I am sending off a manuscript today. I have been delaying, tweaking, reprinting the covering letter, changing the order of the pages. Changing the order again. Thinking out loud that this is a hopeless thing to be doing. Why bother. They won't even comment, let alone reply.

Explanation: Anyone who knows my background might understand this: I must be mad to be writing anything, sending anything out. Because rejection and a very deep-seated fear of it are at the root of who I am.

Don't we all react badly to rejection? Sure. But for some of us, the prospect of it is so appalling that if you looked at it head on you'd never do anything.

So I carry on. What else is there? Except to let others know that they ain't on their own if they feel the same.

Interesting rejection

Followed up a flash submission sent in May with a query.

Flash is about an agency nurse who kills elderly patients and takes their flowers. She kills for flowers... gettit?

Reply came back within a few hours. A rejection saying:

Well written story but I don't like reading about wasting diseases, so I am passing on this one.

Makes you wonder if they read the right submission!

wierd.