Wednesday, 17 September 2008
Sisters - a couple of days on
Lovely surprise... flowers from my sisters just now... when I stopped crying, I had this piccie taken by a friend.
THANKYOU all of you... and sorry Charlie - no time to stick makeup on. This is me, raw and red-eyed.
It’s now a couple of days after the excitement of Sunday, when I finally made contact with four lovely people.
It’s wonderful, but there are so many different feelings pulling me in different directions.
I have many many photographs, of everyone growing up, babies, little girls, teenagers, weddings, and my favourite- a line of bottoms and ‘family legs’ in cut off trousers.
I have many photos of my parents. My mother as a child, on a horse (She rode with Harvey Smith - well, there’s a turn up for the books!). She looks very gentle, with a mop of brown curls and beautiful eyes. My father’s face is strong, well defined.
I rang my ‘step mother’ last night to say thank you for passing on my letter. We talked for a while. It was a bit of a shock she said, but as soon as they saw my website, there was no doubt that I was who I said I was.
Well, I watched enough ghastly programmes over the last few years, in which reunions were made into entertainment. Long-lost siblings falling on each other’s necks and swearing to keep in touch. And then a ‘revisit’ clip at the end of the programme, with a few bemused people saying that nothing had happened since the programme.
Well of course it didn’t. A bit of fame and a studio hairdo glosses up the event, and then the people walked away and carried on with their lives. I think they are probably very lucky if anything grows.
I think having full sisters, as opposed to half sisters is unusual. And it is joyous.
Whatever happens, whether we all return to our lives and let this sink, I know who I am, genetically. And they know who the sibling is that they ‘knew’ about but couldn’t ask.
I am using a lesson learned from those dreadful programmes.
I am so delighted, and moved, to have talked to Susie and Phillippa, and I will visit Phillippa if, in a couple of months time, we both feel it is the right thing to do.
As I said when writing about this initially… if something grows, slowly, then great. If not, this has been the most brilliant conclusion to a long long journey.
I am proud of them all. Of us all. And wish us all much happiness. I know I feel happier and more settled than I ever have.
And now, this blog is returning to its normal transmissions.